I travel the world looking for my love

I travel the world looking for my love;
in airports, on the streets of Venice
I constantly refresh my browser, aching for just a glimpse of your face,
aching for the ways you bend delight into the curvature of my heart
and how nothing fits, nothing at all
nothing is solid, nothing at all
nothing satisfies, nothing at all
Where are you? I cry out,
stumbling over street curbs,
my heart in tatters from the wandering

© Meisaan Chan



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Strange safety

Helplessness can be safe
being vulnerable can be safe –
it depends on who’s hands you’re in

© Meisaan Chan

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Parable of the child learning to walk

The kingdom of God is like a child learning to walk:
At first, she grasps at whatever is in reach, and if it is not solid, she falls.
Slowly, she learns what is solid and grasps only those things – except
when she forgets and grabs what is not solid, then again she falls.

© Meisaan Chan

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The slowness of awareness

How much quicker it would be to run through my life numb!
How much time it takes to be alive!

© Meisaan Chan

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God’s safety

God’s safety always includes death

© Meisaan Chan

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Trust me more, says the Lord

Deepen into infinity –
do you really think that you’ve arrived?

© Meisaan Chan

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No one said that self-care is efficient!

No one said that self-care is efficient!
The wise readjust to the flow

© Meisaan Chan

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